Life Can Be Frustrating!

I consider myself to be an optimist. I have learned how important it is to laugh everyday no matter what is happening. Anyone who knows me, knows I love life. Being able to laugh and love life does not change the fact that sometimes life is down right frustrating. I swear these past six months have been nothing but lets see what else we can throw on Shelly's plate and see if she can still laugh. I have so many things coming at me from every direction. If I take one thing at a time then it is no big deal but the combination is starting to wear on me. I keep trying to simplify my life, well it isn't working. I keep telling myself that all I need to do is push through a little longer and things will work themselves out. Once again it isn't happening or I guess I should say I don't see it happening. I feel like there is alway something else coming my way. Why did I ever want to be a grown-up? Going to school, working two jobs, dating or trying resist dating (and failing at that), trying to figure out what to do after graduation, trying to assure graduation in August, dealing with finances, roommates, lack of time, new and confusing family dynamics, being forced to revise my self-concept, making plans, changing plans, wanting what I shouldn't, unexpected opportunities, other doors closing, lack of motivation to study, lack of sleep, figuring out that what I always thought I wanted might not be right for me, realizing that doing what I feel is right may disappoint people I love, learning to make my own choices without first consulting my family, feeling the push to commit to a coarse of action that will define what my life is to be